rasa nak lari jauh-jauh bawak diri yg gumuks ini..

Rasa fedup n emosi meroyan secara mendadak..bulehhhh tak????
tadi meroyan nak gi beach la..nak gi waterfall bagai siap post kat fb bagai..siap call membe2..
aku rasa aku meroyan pasal nak gi mandi manda ni last 2 weeks lagi kot
so..stop demanding..noktah..titik..full stop..dotted.

biler weekend akan tiber jer aku akan meroyan melampau..
aku jadi fobia dgn weekend padahal aku sendiri tak sabar dgn weekend.
berangang ala2 bahagia dikala weekend..berangan nak bgn kol 3 ptg..
berangan nak bahagia di kala weekend........so suck..

skang ni aku rasa mcm tak mo balik umah plak..
nak off h.set (bajet mcm ada org call ko la yer Baity?)
nak gi jer maner kaki ni melangkah....
balik rumah time housemate tgh tido so that aku takkan menadah telinga
dengar bebelan miss elly (matila aku kalau dia baca belog aku ari ni)..
pas penat ..baru aku leh tido dgn lena..
ni tak..tgh malam jer terjaga..tgh mlm jer terjaga..fed updowh..dah la introduction nak tido pun susah..segala pill telan pun tak jalan gak kan..jap gi aku mati kejung coz OD plak..
tak mo aku..

Aku nak gak menjalani "putus chenta dgn cara yg sihat" bak kata erin..
"saya dulu putus chenta dgn cara yg sihat..nangis puas2 biler penat saya tertido"
bleh ek mcm tu erin???? aku dah try tak bleh pun..lagi nangis puas2 lagi tak leh tido ...ha.ha.ha..apa yg aku buat skang..aku amik headphone pasang surah2 quran smpai la aku tetido setelah 2 jam mata kelip pop..kelip pop..

mesti korang baca belog aku ni rasa aku ni sgt lemmmmaaaaah kan?(ada ke org bc belog aku ni)teringin gak menukarkan diri menjadi ultraman taro ker..power puff gurl ker..power root ke?tapi................sgt s.u.s.a.h ok. nak jadi ultraman kena gi volcano amik api2 yg ada n kumpul dlm lemak2 tepu aku..nak jadi power puff gurl kena pakai skirt pendek nampak butt ..
ter 'reveal' la lemak2 sayuran aku nti...aib..aib..nak jadi power root lak..mcm dag memenuhi spesifikasi dari segi saiz badan..tapi kekdah power root tu powerrrrrrrr tang lain kot..ish..ish..dah lain motip tu..
so cemana???????jadila diri sendiri seadanya kan...

entry ni mmg ntah ape2 sebab org yg menaipnya sedang MEROYAN..
so layankan jer la yer...

Speak Now-Tylor Swift

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in
On a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

I sneak in and see your friends
And her snotty little family
All dressed in pastel

And she is yelling at a bridesmaid
Somewhere back inside a room
Wearing a gown shaped like a pastry

This is surely not
What you thought it would be
I lose myself in a daydream
Where I stand and say:

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said "speak now"

Fond gestures are exchanged
And the organ starts to play
A song that sounds like a death march

And I am hiding in the curtains
It seems I was uninvited
By your lovely bride-to-be

She floats down the aisle
Like a pageant queen
But I know you wish it was me
You wish it was me, don't you?

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said "speak now"

Don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
Your time is running out
And they said, "speak now"

Ooh, la, oh
Ooh, ooh

I hear the preacher say
"Speak now or forever hold your peace"
There's a silence, there's my last chance
I stand up with shaking hands, all eyes on me

Horrified looks from
Everyone in the room
But I'm only looking at you

I am not the kind of girl
Who should be rudely barging in
On a white veil occasion
But you are not the kind of boy
Who should be marrying the wrong girl

So don't say yes, run away now
I'll meet you when you're out
Of the church at the back door

Don't wait or say a single vow
You need to hear me out
And they said, "speak now"

And you say
Let's run away now
I'll meet you when
I'm out of my tux at the back door

Baby, I didn't say my vows
So glad you were around when they said
"Speak now"

27.11.2010

Ini kisah tentang seorang perempuan dan seorang lelaki.
yang hidupnya indah penuh dengan gelak ketawa..
Berangan –angan membina impian yang indah bersama lelaki ini

Perempuan ini mengangan-angankan majlis pertunangan yg simple tapi penuh dgn memory
Bercadang dihari pertunangannya memiliki mini pelamin..
Bercadang memakai baju bewarna peach
Bercadang untuk menghormati adat di negeri sana iaitu acara menyarung cincin untuk pihak lelaki juga


Tarikh pertunangan telah mendapat kata sepakat..
Baik di sebelah pihak lelaki mahupun perempuan..
Ibu bapa kedua2 belah pihak sungguh teruja untuk menyempurnakan majlis pertunangan itu..
Maklumlah..yang perempuan anak bongsu yg pihak lelaki anak sulung..

Tetapi angan hanyalah angan ..
Semuanya hancur musnah..
Cinta hilang sekelip mata sebegitu saja.


Tiada lagi majlis suci itu.
Tiada lagi kasih antara lelaki dan perempuan itu..

Lelaki adalah lelaki dan
Perempuan itu adalah AKU..